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[16 Jul 2003|08:21pm]
everyone should go join the le tigre community.
__le_tigre
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[11 Apr 2003|05:34pm]
I HAVE A NEW LIVEJOURNAL, I'LL USE THIS ONE FOR LITTLE STUFF UNTIL I HAVE ALL MY FRIENDS ADDED BACK ON MY NEW LIVEJOURNAL. MY NEW NAME IS like_a_bulletx ADD ME AND I'LL ADD YOU BACK. IF I ALREADY AHVE YOU ADDED ADD ME BACK! AND YES I DITCHED LIKE 4 PERIODS TODAY.
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[08 Apr 2003|07:44pm]
I HAVE A NEW LIVEJOURNAL LIKE_A_BULLETX. ADD IT, IF I HAVEN'T ALREADY ADDED YOU TELL ME AND I WILL. so what has bein going down? oh god i am so gay. i started to feel really sick in 3nd period. now i am really really sick. 3rd period saw a band thing, talked ot zoe and some faggets behind me.shedia came up to me after it and said "westside or eastside?" and i said "Westside fo lyphe!", it was funny trust me. i ditched 4th period with doron and elana. me and elana got bored, so we went into the bath room.

i got caught for ditching today, mhhm. it sucked,some chink talking down to you, she needs to go get some wet balls. i have been talking to keith and elana like the whole day, well since i came home from school. i love her, look:

yes i jocked you jenny so effing fucking sorry, <3.
and since i was already taking a picture this happened:
i think i'm a little obsessedCollapse ) and its cute how i got in a fight with claire today, saw 3 happy couples and faggets being fake. my life is beinging to suck again. atleast i have elana, jenny, keith, and sarah m. seriously jenny is my world
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[06 Apr 2003|06:22pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

i want a boy to be next to me right now sitting on my couch in front of a nice fire, drinking hott cocco, listening to norah jones and him kissing me and saying "i love you. i honestly love you"

i want a boyfriend. one to hold me and kiss me on the forhead and to hold my hand. to bring me slurpees, and cuddle with. to take pictures with, to have a reason to get up in the morning. one to think about during school, one who will call me all the time. he would go shopping with me and he would come over and he'd try to impress me and make me laugh. we will go to the commons together and sit on a bench and just hold my hand and look into my eyes and be able to see how much i love him.

and i would bring him soup when hes sick, and send him letters with a dried flower in them saying i love him and how much i cherish him. i woudl listen to his problems and tell him mine. id go to school functions with him and to his house to met his great family. i would have my mom drive us up to the beach and we would have picnics. we would listen to le tigre, and drink slurpees. i would love every min. with him. i would go to the end of the world for him.

if you have ever seen the movie sweet november, that is the kidna love i want. him crying when she is pain, her caring about his job, and him tryign to help her not hurt herself anymore. the only part about that movie is didn't like was that she left him. i cryed when she left him, i don't know why she did.
these scars on my wrists are for what i will never have.

Pink Robot KILL
: 1-800-I HAVE WET BALLS
Sweetangel6290: 1-800- i know im the one that got them wet :-D
best one:
Pink Robot KILL: 1-800-I HAVE WET BALLS
so much kill: 1-800-SAMANTHA SUCKS ELANAS CHODE
i think my friends make my life a little easier. they always show me love. if i didn't have friends i think i would die. and since i don't have alot of "true friends", i consider my "friends" my bestfriends. thank you, claire, jenny, raquel, elana, sarah m, and sarah H, keith. you few people are my oxygen, and i need you too live.

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Something Wild x: oh jeez i think your teh one who is drunk [03 Apr 2003|10:03pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

thursday-sunday= best week of my life.

melody of words was alot of fun, i wish i had my camera. i hung out with my gurls, elana and racool. we ran around and like got in trouble, sorta. i hung out with all my homies. i had to pee like the whole time. i saw teh gordens, xaiver, my and all them, and terry and avi! i took terry home, it was so funny we so coudln't fing his house.

ok ok this weekend was so totally hardcore. ok it wasn't hardcore just really really fun. friday commons with sarahjane<3, my bisexual bitch, and cameron(shes my drama queen). i hung out with kira, raquel, sarah jane, micheal and robert most of the night. i had like a fight with taryan, she also like sprained my finger. my, jenean, aurash, tritsan, taylor, laura<3(8th grade), lissa, gus gus and his bro, anthony, keith, brett, koko, sami, petri(ahahah nicole), nicoles new boyfriends terry, elaine, LAURA, SHANNON, ALEX, ANDREW!(these people i barley see) and some other faggets i don't like were there. i meet mary, she si so cute. gus gus kept lighting shit on fire, gayness. i was hyper like whoa. i am in love with terrys pager, its the shit.

then me sarahjane and cameron slept over nicoles, i thougth it was fun. we watched hook, its the best movie. me and sarah had another "talk", it wasn't as long, but i cherished it. i hate water guns. we like sat around all day watched tv. i got in the shower to wake myslef up. i didn't call my mom so she was all mad becasue id din't call her. she made me do standards to go out. sarah and nicole did them for me, i love those girls so fucking much. sarah left and me and katz went to the commons. i didn't have a shirt to wear, well atleast taht was cute so nicoel let me use this shirt:

whoa i loved the commons saturday. it was me, nicole, sami, petri, anthony, aurash and taylor. terrys pager was like all over everyones balls, aurash has very nice balls. and whoa does taylor have a nice ass. nicole and aurash were like all over each other. i got to be with taylro alot of the night. when i got tired i sat on this dirt place, it had alot of rocks, i started to look at teh stars. then when i was talkign to nicole aurash grabbed my leg and pulled me across all these rocks, asshole. taylor siad he loved me and called me his girl and shit liek that, i was like omg i like him. then me and nicole ahd to pee so we drove to mic donalds. i so ran up this hill to see aurash, tristan, and taylor. we chilled with them for about 5 min. me and nicole went to vons to pee, then got some food, theni i took her home. when i came home i went online and talked to all my friends. racool sent me this:

i love that girl so much. badass for life. i talked to noel last night too, we both have hearts, real hearts. right now i am bored and talking to koko. oh and guess what i am listening to right now? le tigre of course, i love em.

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Themaceman28: Sami i love you [02 Apr 2003|04:55pm]
OK SO KNOTTS IS THE BEST. i went to knotts berry farm today. i went on a school day, go me. i went with choir, yeh i am in it, i rock. i sat next to skylar on the way over. we listened to music and talked about shit. she has pretty eyes. when we finnally got there it took alittle time to get in. so i took pictures of all my choir people.

me and skylar so totally took photo booth pictures, and so did me and zoe.me and them are so cute, i love them.skylar is so like my best friend. she is great. zoe got out of one of the pictures, dumbass.

the photos took so long to come out. skylar thought teh photo booth was broken so she walked off. yeh, then snoopy came out of this door. so we went and took a picture with snoopy. snoopy was great, but the wmen with him was a bitch.

me, skylar, zoe, and catilin all hung out. when skylar, catilin, and zoe were on supreme scream they saw the choir kids getting ready to sing, they told me so i started to run to teh stage. then they finnaly got off and came running, they were late, mhm. so we sang, so embarassing. still i had fun! i got candy and rode like one ride, kinda sucks. we had to leave so me and skylar didn't take anymore pictres, =(. we got on the bus, so fun. i talked to melissa and matt on the way home, skylar slept.

then i came back and sang for, chorus. then i went and chilled with some of my friends at the front of school, i love my friends. my friends missed me. alot of peopel came up to me and said where were you. keith and tanya hugged me, they almost tackled me. so cute of them. now i am watching doug. oh yeh platt tomorrow with katz. pictures will be on her livejournal.
p.s. this livejournal is now public
i miss taylor, hes my boy.
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[01 Apr 2003|10:21pm]


jenny made this for me<3

[01 Apr 2003|07:14pm]
i have noticed that since koko has been mad at nicole me & hiomhave become pretty close. eww vicotira, i will be he friend once she says sorry. ahh she jockes everyone. today she looked like a mix of sarah,claire,& nicole. nicoles pants, claireS hair, sarahs sweatshirt. today was ok. alot of dissing of everyone, i GOT DRESS CODE TODAY. lots people thought i looked cute tho.this is so my outfit i got suspended for:

i walked to raquels today, so much fun, so much. we listened to music with koko, rauqel, kira, and victoria and erika were in the other room eating. then kira left and me and erika went to platt, mmm platt. i love platt! it was so fun. lots of people there. miy and xaiver were making out the whole time. ashley and me were so hanging with each otehr the whole time, she is great.

so much kill: YOU WANA ROLL WIT ME YOU COULD BE MY APPLE AND I COULD BE YOUR ORANGE
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so much kill: YOU WANA ROLL WIT ME YOU COULD BE MY BIG JUICY MELON AND I COULD BE YOUR BIG JUICY ORANGE.

BallUup69: has the orange been smoking the weed
so much kill: THE ORANGE HAS BEEN GOIN WIT THE GREEN
so much kill: BUT THE GREEN DONT GOT THE GREEN TA PLEASE ME, so effing cute.
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i need a break [30 Mar 2003|06:21pm]
i swear to god someone just drove by my house yelling samantha!, weird.it sounded like elana, but it wasn't. if it was i would of ran to the car and gave her a great big hug and a tissue to dry her eyes. it wasn't her, and i don't think anyone will every do that for me. i think i wanted that to happen so badly that i imagined it, but i swear someone said my name.now i'm hearing things. oh god i am going insane.

he has a new girlfriend, my heart is shattered. i knew teh day woudl come, but it still hurts, alot. i wihs he would show-up on my doorstep, holding a single red rose, and a apoiligey letter. i woudl give him the biggest hug. i would be crying so much, but tears of joy and hapiness. he said he liked her but now he is going out with her. so many scars on my wirst for him, so many.

three of my bestfriends are having really big and very bad boy problems, like where they want to kill them selves bad. i have no idea what to do. and they can't really explain their problems to me. one problem is he has a new girlfriend, and it breaks her heart. anotehr problem is that he made otu with ehr good friend. and the last one i can't even explain, becausei don't know about it. its so hard to try to comfort them.

[30 Mar 2003|12:19am]
ok life is a fucking bitch. he would like me but no i am too fucking young. god age is going to be the death of me. he's so nice, and he is so fucking cute. fuck age! fuck age! fuck age! fuck age! fuck age! fuck age! fuck age! fuck age! he even said taht when i am older i will be even more beautiful, he is sucha fucking sweetheart.
i was looking at livejournals and i found these.
see_love_die _electrocutioneverybody thinks these girls are claiming to be martine and torie, i think they are martine and torie, but hey think what you want.

platt is like the best place! these are old, but still i had so0o0o0o0 much fun with racool

me and elana hung out yesturday, so much fun. we saw a mvoie and chilled at rite aid. we went ot in n out and made fun of this lady in the car ebhind us. we had fun in the bathroom too. elana was so sad in the movie tho, i felt so bad.here are some pictures. i hope her situation gets betetr, mine did =)
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ok life is a fucking bitch. he would like me but no i am too fucking young. god age is going to be the death of me. he's so nice, and he is so fucking cute. fuck age! fuck age! fuck age! fuck age! fuck age! fuck age! fuck age! fuck age! he even said taht when i am older i will be even more beautiful, he is sucha fucking sweetheart.
i was looking at livejournals and i found these.
<lj user="see_love_die"> <lj user="_electrocution">everybody thinks these girls are claiming to be martine and torie, i think they are martine and torie, but hey think what you want.

platt is like the best place! these are old, but still i had so0o0o0o0 much fun with racool
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me and elana hung out yesturday, so much fun. we saw a mvoie and chilled at rite aid. we went ot in n out and made fun of this lady in the car ebhind us. we had fun in the bathroom too. elana was so sad in the movie tho, i felt so bad.here are some pictures. i hope her situation gets betetr, mine did =)
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then we dropped elana home and me and my mom went to church. i have never really been to one. it was so beautiful. after that i dropped of raquel ehr cd, i love her.
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<b>She Heard RED</b>: hi
<b>Auto response from xdonald duckxx</b>: i love my sami steffin!!!!!
yall jealous of my great friend keith!
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[29 Mar 2003|01:18pm]
elana is so crushed i feel so bad. if what happened to her happened to me i would probably be dead by now. i mean a friend of hers mabey not a good one ,but a friend made out with the guy she likes, that is so fucked. victoria you deserve to die, seriously what you did was so wrong. your such a god damn bitch, die just die. you suck at life seriously.
die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. die. just please go somewhere and get out of everybodys life. everyone would be so much happier, oh by the way learn to use a camera.
i have got pictures!Collapse )
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[28 Mar 2003|08:50pm]
[ mood | relieved ]

miss miller called home today so i couldn't go out, else i would be out this very second.i so totally ditched 6th period today, so good of me, so good. when i was ditching 6th period guess who i saw......xaiver,robert,micheal,and my brother(ashkan). they are so cute. oh god ashkans hair. whoa damn xaiver is hott, he's like on firaaaaaaa! i am gay, the end.

clear I can see the rose is frail the thorns hide its beauty
as I go to grasp it in my head
my heart is torn beating from me
let me be capivated, by your beauty
then let me fall from your grace, unto my broken knee
you aren't worth the waste, of the salt or the water
fuck all your false beauty, it was transparent just like ur smile-lair
your thorns caress my flesh, crimson drops on a snowy field-lair
and I couldn't really care less about u
just wither away real beauty is forever in u
just wither away
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[27 Mar 2003|08:38pm]
when i was in english class today we were readin abook called the martian chronicles. when we were readin one of the main female characters is talking about a dream she ahd about a handsome man. he had black hair blue eyes, a perfect crystal blue. he was about 5'9 and very pale, btu not sick pale, hott pale. her description made me love ryan even more. i started to cry,becasue it was just like him. not liek omg be sent out of teh room, but if you saw my face you would of seen me being thorn up inside. then i came home and told jenny what i did today and she told ryan, of course he got mad. i broke my pormise to him, kill me please.OH YEH I CHILLED WITH SOME GOOD LOOKIN GIRLS AND MEET SOME CHILL ASS PEOPLE.SHANNON AND ALEX ARE SO COOL. HI I LIKE SHANNON IN THAT WAY, SHE'S HOTT. I THINK I AM GAY FOR SHANNON OH AND SEXY ALEX.

why do i love keith so much? oh yeh no i remeber heres why:
HyPeDoFfSuGerBoY: friends forever and ever <33
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all i am, is drama. [26 Mar 2003|03:03pm]
[ mood | _kill__x; ]

lots of people are sick today, or just stayed home. i was sick/ stayed home, i miss claire. i want to see claire today. i most likely can't tho, damn parents. she does make everyday at school better. mabey the kids that i got to school with may not think she is my best friend, but she is, and i hope she will be forever.

i had a dream about him, about him coming over, about him and me seeing a movie, a dream about marrying him, but mostly just about him. it was, i think about the best dream ever. i talked to him today. our conversation lasted for about 10 min, it was short, but great.

i have noticed that he doesn't want to have anything to do with me. i never call him anymore or even have an actul conversation with him. we never chill anymore. i ask him if he wants to chill, but he doesn't say anything. i still think its because i am only 13, fucking age. my mom use to say "no boys over and you can NEVER go to a boys house." now she is sayin yah sure he can come over, fuck. even if he doesn't like me, i would love to hang out with him. seeing him from a distance would put a smile on my face.

he once called me his best friend <3. i would so love to be his best friend. we would chill all the time. we would see movies together and talk about everything. the last time i saw him was like two weeks ago. that is sucha long time.

claire told me that her and jared were talking about me and him. they were sayin that me and him are perfect for each other. they couldn't figure out why he doesn't like me. they were sayin that i like his music, i like the way he dresses and i dress the same. we have so much in common. i am sweet and very adorable. i say sweet things and i care about him more then anyone else. i love him and i am devoted to him. they couldn't figure it out, now that i think of it i can't either.

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[25 Mar 2003|12:58am]
[ mood | blah ]

he made me cry again. fuck i am so emo, eww.i love how listening to Le Tigre makes me happy.i was crying from talking to "him", but since i put on Le Tigre i am dancing around my room all happy and shit. wanna disco? wanna see me disco?. Le Tigre makes me so fucking happy, oh do i love dyke music.there has been ALOT of drama in my life lately. do you hate me? you like her? eww she is gross! shut the fuck up please i don't care. its middle school, drama is going to happening. i want one bestfriend to be with me all the time, do projects with me, buy lunch with me, and everything. i don't have that, and i hate it. my bestfriends moved away: sisters. i miss them so much. and ryan isn't making my life easier. i still love him tho, i know i know i should stop but i don't care. i love him, he is perfect. i know he doesn't like me or ever will, but i love him. i also like raad but not as much as ryan. he flipped on me again today<3, so sweet. tristan wants to be my friend, weird. and on top of everything else, my mom is sick. she has something wrong with her liver. i love her so much i don't want her to die or be in extreme pain. she is alseep right now, i am glad.my dad is out getting drunk, what a fucking loser. & my brother is in his room high as a butterfly.
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[21 Mar 2003|11:14pm]
[ mood | honey nut chex ]

today rocked so hard.i slept in, i loved it. then i went to school, ashkan was there. school was ok, watched a video and took a test, mmmmm.walked to raquels, then to platt. jesse took me on a date<3

jesse is so cute, he is a very messy eater tho. then i went to the libary. i tagged the back it says "badass". we took alot of pictures. me and raquel are bad.

everyone was having so much fun.victoria was all over ashkan i think it is love. he should just ask her out

i skated in a skirt i am bad!

then we walked ashkan home,all i wanted to do was lay on the lawn, they wouldn't let me.

then me raquel kira and victoria got ready. we went to the commmons around like 6:45. we walked around for a little while then i saw all my friends. if you weren't there then you missed out, so much fun. i sniffed salt and smoked a ciggarette; badass.

me kira and raquel had so much fun in the rite aid cart. awh i like douglas and xaiver and westly so mch they are so cute. micheal, robert,douglas,westly, raad, xaiver, nicole, sarah, izzy, heather, devon, brett, keith, terry, brian,catilin,joey, and all those other metal heads. of course i was the last person there, gayness.i gave raad and westly a ride home, they are so cute in teh car, they were talking about their moms and their shampoo. my mom is like in love with them.
pictures from tonightCollapse )

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[19 Mar 2003|11:30pm]
[ mood | i like ryan ]

i am bad i ditched two periods today! yeh i am a true badass.when i saw jenny in the car i was so happy.i was thinking yeah! i get to seejennyPRETTYface!!!!!me and ashkan both ran to her.he cut me,he only got a hand shake.i got a great big jenny hug.i loved it.i love her.its like hi i i'm sami and i am in love with jenny, she is my mommmy.during pe i said " i miss my mommy" fred and brittany said i sounded like samara.i want that to be my name.well anyways when i siad i miss my mommy i was talking about jenny and my real one,but more jenny.mmmmmmmmmm jenny is so pretty i hope i grow up to look just like her.

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